You experience death for the first time even though she has a breathing tube
You see your sister cry and you remember why you took this trip and you remember she has feelings and its not just you
You eat and drink and talk to distract the fact that someone is passing by and the relationship you had-no matter how short- was not insignificant
It's hard to grasp that this will happen throughout life and its not just something that happens in the movies.
You finally understand that life is real and its not some dream and you wonder how it'll hurt when you relive a death again


You wish people lived forever.