Stand strong, persist to live even if you rather not. Because as long as you live, you can be the difference. By Loving others, by Blessing them as well my friend. For then God can use you to minster and change others. Change their hearts toward others through your obedience. For being obedient is more then just reading the bible. Its more then not sinning or Praising your Great Savior. Its allowing him to use you to minster to other people. It's doing what he ask, even when you feel like laying down.