Overdue words escaped my mouth that night -
I knew it was time.
Hopeless confession,
of a romantic obsession
I thought you could not hear me.
thought you wouldn't remember my hesitance,
my embrace.
God I wanted to kiss you,
I should've realized how precious those moments were.
So much regret for not regretting enough. Do you understand?

The worst part, I think, is that I still care. IT wells up like a quick forming tsunami. IT drowned me faster than I ever realized, until it was all too late. I've sunken to the sea floor. Now I feel like sinking even more. Deeper. Deeper into brittle sands.
I'm sorry I couldn't face you today. I am still very emotional and I'm scared I'll say too much again. I don't want to scare you off. At the same time I don't want things to stay this way. I miss you. Still. I said I needed closure but I never went through it all. I should've kissed you, I should've kissed you, I wish I kissed you.