I'm sorry I love you I miss you I wish, I just wish
The typical words that go storming and parading Around in my head, I wish things Could have been different Hearing the words over and over "He wanted you to be The One." Tears trickling down my face every time I imagine your pain The heart break I caused you As you let me soar, fly free, only to leave You, down on your knees Is the truth.
If I could paint a picture And make you understand I know deep in my heart You will never be the right man But God, how I wanted it God, how I wanted you But I slow myself down As I fling myself into an oblivion Which sometimes I confuse for loneliness Abandonment, self loathing, and chaos You whistled and hummed against me So many times.
I've barely eaten today Everything is such a chore As clocks remind me I cannot stop And men like you try to drain me Like the tub that gets full of my roommates Manes I wish I wish No, I really don't.
I hope in time You will open your eyes As The Betrayer himself cooed late into the night "It was hard for me to leave you. I didn't want to." They always want me to be the one.
But when will the beautiful day come Where I'm not looking And I've got my beautiful white gold Embellished in roses and fire That a very brave, kind, strong Warrior man Will reveal himself to me And always give me his hand.
I don't know I thought that day would be sooner I suppose But here I am, Shuffling through a deck of cards Only to find No aces or spades That long and call my name.
But you tried And I tried We all did. But I look next to me Beside me In front of me And I find great comfort In letting you go.
I take a step back I let myself cry over colorful sweaters And how you told me I was your angel Just two weeks ago I know you must replay and replay My cold business and vivid eyes In your mind, a thousand ******* times
So I leap and I dance With no choreography Or specific motifs Tableus Or set gestures planned
Because swan dives Are the best Pure and spontaneous.