Lights flash yellow, red, green
You’re unlike anything I’ve ever seen
Your eyes shone recklessly of immortal eighteen
They’re luring, persuasive, hypnotizing
I am stuck in a cycle of us, and then me. It’s terrifying, but I could not hide
Behind walls I built; the cement had not dried.
I tried.
Tried to keep you away, but now you’re inside.

This vulnerability was not what I wanted;
I was content with loneliness, to me this is new.
You said I’m too hesitant, too timid. it’s true.
But I think now I’m only part me, and part you.

Pills- blue, white, pink
“Love is a mirage, a marketing technique. A concept that gives humans a reason to keep going, keep searching. It’s just ignorant hope, a made-up belief.
Dependency is unnecessary, I never needed anybody. Love is a confectionary lie
Attempting to sweeten the cruelty of life.”

Love is an illusion that I wanted to stay an illusion
Love was a transfusion of your mind into mine
An illusion that I screamed wasn’t real as you held me tight and my bones begged you not to let go
A concept that has arms and legs and walked up, knocked on my door and said hello
I know now it’s real, but I just wish it would go
Away.
Because you left with my soul, now I have no control.


Cause I gave you everything, and I have nothing left.
I know you weren’t new to this, a heart and soul theft
I have an uncontrolled tendency to imagine you somewhere far away from me, and I’m nothing but a memory. An out of tune melody that plays here and there.
And I hope you’re reminded of the one begged you to stay far away from her soul. but you broke in, took all that you could carry and fled.