the lights are off
it's time to wind down and swim away
wide eyed i peer into black nothingness
my thoughts taunt me
i want to relax and fall asleep with a humble smile
i'm lying beside you
i can feel your legs behind mine
and from the sound of your heavy breath
i know you've gone
i feel alone...
i talk to you
i tell you how much i love you
how you mean the world to me...
with rue my heart struggles from carrying this weight
i think about the things i've done wrong
my misguided naivete
the chances i missed due to careless negligence
and how fragile i've become from this soaked in sense of failure
i'm stripped down to nothing
i've shed the inane ignorance
it's not enough
i'm not enough
i fear it's too late
i want to give you a covetous life
my wants suffocate you
our heavy hearts are tied together like two fishes
something so intangible between us
how could we ever let go
this beautiful ethereal thing
a high order was made to bridge our paths
a relevant communion between the priest and the messiah
here to change the world selflessly
so similar in sentiment
so different in circumstance
drowning in passivity
black emptiness surrounds us
i love you i say
if only the meaning hadn't drifted away