My affliction , continually weeping for yesterday ! A map with a critical piece missing , an act that continues to repeat , locked within , numerous antagonizing combinations to solve and address , a smiling face given under duress ! Held under water seeking air , walking a tightrope over the portal to Hell ! Defraying the act of suicide every hour three days a week , committing my allegiance to any savior that would have me ..Pills at breakfast , drugs at lunch , ****** up by supper , barely able to walk ! Green pill at seven , white pill at nine ! Five pills at bedtime , up half the night !