It's been awhile
I probably shouldn't say this
But hey
I know I wasn't much of a person
That could really be trusted and I'm sorry
I know apologies are too late
And all those poem I wrote to you
I still mean them
You were and still am on my mind
You know I have many talents
Writing and drawing
Remember that drawing I drew for us
I still have it
Still cherish it with infinite lust
To hear your voice again
To hear you say I'm lying when i said
I love you
I know I'm still a nobody
Life seems lost
And I dont want a sympathy party thrown
Or you thinking I'm trying to find myself
My torch went out went I let you go
When I failed to realize the greatest thing
In my life in my world
Was always on the other side of my phone
I wish I could make it all better
I wish sorry had value
I wish I never introduced myself
And brought my own chaos
Stampede through your chest
I'm a ****** person
I deserve to live with this guilt
With this pain
But I know eventually you'll forget
Who I was in your life
I'll become some guy you talked to
Some guy who said he loves you
Still knows your true identity
And will never forget
How I destroyed something perfect
I know you still resent me
Still have those built up homicide thoughts
Wanting to rip my chest open
Feed me my own intestines
I'm probably off base but it doesn't matter
I wish I had the proper words to say
But all I can say is...
Hey. I miss you.