I haven't wrote in awhile
Bc I've been falling
Scared
Stalling
Wanting more time to analyze why
Why should I give you a chance
You'll just break my heart I know
Bc you're too good to be true
When all I've ever seen you be is you
But it's a you I like
You're that guy
The guy momma tells you to stay away from
Bc he'll make you fall in so deep
And when he leaves your heart will fleet
He'll take it with him and you'll never have it again
Bc he's smooth
Like something out of a story book
He has this way about him that draws you in
He's charming he's thoughtful
With the perfectly planned "good morning texts"
The secret fantasies he evokes about ***
The way he makes you laugh
Oh god I love a man that makes me laugh
The way he makes you smile in the middle of the day
The truth to the words he say
The sexiness his confidence excludes
But you're scared to let him know how you feel
Bc if you want him who else does too
How can I be sure I'm the only one
I'm not i know bc he's that guy
The one momma told me to stay away from
The one who'll only break my heart
The one whose heart I'll break
Bc I've been broken from start
Broke so long ago
I find happiness in emptiness
I find security in not trying so hard
But i can't find love bc I'm scared
Scared I'll give my all and be broken
Shattered
I can't be emotional
Bc I'm not wired that way
Well I am but it's wired deep down
In places no one sees
Bc who wants all their emotions exposed
And vulnerability
Not me
Not me
So I run hoping you set me free
Then I cry bc I don't wanna be let go
No I don't wanna be alone
Even though being alone brings me peace
I crave affection and attention
So maybe that's wat it is
I crave attention that you give
Who am I kidding ?
I know exactly wat it is
I'm running just like when I was a kid
Running bc momma said beware
Beware of a man that can give you everything you need
Beware of that man
Bc everything he promised you
He promises her too
And I couldn't bear it if somebody else knew
He treats me the way
All the other guys won't
He treats me the way I want
So I can break you with a broken me
Don't take it personal
Please don't do that
Bc it'll hurt worse to think I hurt you
When that's not my plan
My plan is to run
Run from a man
A man that can take my heart and fix it
A man that'll fix me and break me again
Bc everything I want she'll see
And he'll get tired of fighting me
For affection
And glimpses into the broken me
He'll see she's better
Bc imma broken heart
Shattered
By a broken man long ago
So when he asks
How do I feel
I never let my vulnerability show
Bc why break another heart
But isn't that how the cycle goes?