I'm afraid of failure
You know the reason why?
It always brings me back to when
I saw suspicion in your eyes
You see, that one look on your face
Really said it all
You didn't trust me, simply put
I'd never felt so small
"You can't live in fear", he said
But he didn't understand
You have the power to hurt me most
Without lifting a hand
I've craved your pride ever since
I was a little thing,
lifting up my arts and crafts
Begging you to see
As I grew, I thought good grades
Would surely make you proud
So I memorized and studied late,
I practiced good and loud
I told my friends "we are so close,
I tell them everything"
I wrote you songs, and did my best
Hoping you'd be pleased
So understand why I'm afraid
Of failure, and myself
I don't want to disappoint
And I don't want to ask for help
I'm afraid of that day when I say,
"I'm sorry" and you ask
"Who told you to say that?"
As if you weren't buying that
I'm afraid of the day when you don't
Say "I love you" when you leave
Or when you walk by so coldly
It's like you can't see me
I'm afraid of the day when my
word won't mean a thing
"Frankly, we don't trust you"
Is what you're saying, don't you see?
I'm afraid of the day I feel
Like giving up
When you look at me like all I've done
Is drained you of your love
If I was honest, I'd tell you why,
Why I am afraid
If I was honest, I'd tell you, mom
The day I feared was today