Oct 2015
7.13° N, 125.6° E
15:41
You were leaving.
I could have asked you
A thousand things
In the time we spent together.
I could have asked you
For the real reason
As to why you chose to spend
Those past few nights with me
In this nameless, blameless city.
I could have asked you
Who or what you were thinking of
In the times that you fell silent
And stared off into the distance.
I could have asked you
If you thought that
Coming here was a mistake
And that you'd rather be somewhere else,
Lost in the arms of someone else.
I could have asked you how I never
Heard you utter my name and yet
The taste of his name still lingered
On your lips and on your tongue
And down your throat.
I could have told you
A thousand things
In the time we spent together.
I could have told you
How I wanted everything,
And yet nothing, to change.
I could have told you
That the people we used to love
Didn't have to ruin the memories
Of things we cherished the most
Or the memories that we were
About to create.
I could have told you
About how leaving was such sweet misery
And yet it didn't have to mean
Saying goodbye.
About how I was still uncertain
About everything.
About you, about me.
About what this was
And where all of this
Was going.
But no.
I tried my hardest not to.
I was too busy drowning
In the things I wanted to ask
And the things I wanted you to say
That I forgot
That it wasn't going to matter
Soon enough.
16:02**
You were already gone
Before you even left.
15:41
You were leaving.
I could have asked you
A thousand things
In the time we spent together.
I could have asked you
For the real reason
As to why you chose to spend
Those past few nights with me
In this nameless, blameless city.
I could have asked you
Who or what you were thinking of
In the times that you fell silent
And stared off into the distance.
I could have asked you
If you thought that
Coming here was a mistake
And that you'd rather be somewhere else,
Lost in the arms of someone else.
I could have asked you how I never
Heard you utter my name and yet
The taste of his name still lingered
On your lips and on your tongue
And down your throat.
I could have told you
A thousand things
In the time we spent together.
I could have told you
How I wanted everything,
And yet nothing, to change.
I could have told you
That the people we used to love
Didn't have to ruin the memories
Of things we cherished the most
Or the memories that we were
About to create.
I could have told you
About how leaving was such sweet misery
And yet it didn't have to mean
Saying goodbye.
About how I was still uncertain
About everything.
About you, about me.
About what this was
And where all of this
Was going.
But no.
I tried my hardest not to.
I was too busy drowning
In the things I wanted to ask
And the things I wanted you to say
That I forgot
That it wasn't going to matter
Soon enough.
16:02**
You were already gone
Before you even left.
We are made of sterner stuff than this.
