A day consists of 24 hours 1,440 minutes 86,400 seconds That average person takes about 20,000 breaths a day Every second of every day is based around my recovery Mind games Distractions How many times I can look in the mirror and tell myself no At least 4 Maybe 5 3 on a good day A person blinks almost 28,800 times in 24 hours But sometimes I just stare So I can focus on something other than my recovery My addiction My need for something other than what I can't have I can hear my thought process Sometimes it's quiet Like when I'm asleep Other times it's the only thing I hear So I call her because she knows how to turn down the volume She is my recovery Because even for a split second everything is perfect when I see her The amount of breaths I take double The number of times I blink goes down rapidly My need for recovery increases exponentially She is the calm that flows over my body The rush of oxygen to my brain When she talks to me my number of bad days plummet Because she loves me and I love her So by hurting me I hurt her My recovery is an ongoing process That consists of 24 hours 1,440 minutes 86,400 seconds Of me trying not to hurt myself 1 day turns into 1 victory And when I tell her that over the phone I can sense that she is smiling So 1 day really turns into 2 victories