It's always been this way, am I able to change?
I was 5 years old and I was in the bath tub of my old house, my mom made the bubble bath and stayed there with me, I took baths because I was too scared to have a shower because my mom could leave the bathroom and I wouldn't be able to hear, I was 5 years old and already feeling overwhelming amounts of anxiety and fear of abandonment,  I was 5 years old and I looked up to my mom and said "mumma I don't think I was ment to be a person" that was 12 years ago and to this day I think **I just wasn't meant to be a person