You wont celebrate, you fear growing old, having to bring a young lady home, when you have to become a husband, and soon a father, you fear losing your youth. Two years from now you will be 21
you just turned 19 i shall still remind you that it is your birthday. Best wish with love i send out to you, you fear growing old, but may God increase your days on earth. Your fear of growing old surely you will soon overcome, when you now realise that you are just one year older now.