I just can't anymore. That's the truth. I am so over the whole thing. It's not you at all. It's just me and my expectations. I want to be free. If you need something I will assist. But who am I kidding when have I ever been any good. I will disappear and no one will notice. Why even bother? Writing this is just a waste as well. Nothing has meaning anymore. I'm over it. I need to be free. I don't want to feel you anymore.