I love him and I don't want to I really really do not ******* want to but we're in the same class and it's difficult and even if we weren't he is in my head.

I used to be in his bed and I regret it because he made me feel things and I made me feel things and I don't want to feel anymore. I don't think I make sense anymore. I don't wanna be me anymore.

And I went to the bathroom and thought "Just stop it. Just ******* stop it. Stop feeling for him. Just don't love him anymore."

But I do