I'm sick with fear, regret, and hope.
I can't focus, I can't fall, I can't fathom.
He's too much but I know nothing.
He knows nothing and we are nothing.
I've no right to feel a thing for him.
Jealousy.
Devotion.
Anger.
Love.
Because he is not mine and
I
Am
Nothing
He is indescribable.
A gift to earth.
A wrinkled nose and a beautiful laugh
A scarred hand and a blistered past.
He is a miracle.
The most beautiful **** miracle.