Draw me up a list of pros and cons for each moment of this confounding, writhing existence.
I miss you! I say I'm right here, you say. And you are; pounding a hollow in my heart.
My experience is so foreign to you, with so many of your silences in between that I am lonely without our common thread, consumed with daily dread.
We broke every egg to build a life, so why can't we clear away the construction site? As we work, some invisible poison - always new - will creep in to soil my view as the vista greys out to bleak.
The work of rubble clearing stops, and meanwhile, I concoct multiple versions of the words you do not speak, of the stories you do not tell.
I acknowledge the weight of a hundred years of anger, but the only thing that brings peace is the scent of us together.
Since the hourglass threatens, I tell you this again, begging you to hear it better:
I can only do so much to combat my hardwired demons, but
*all it takes to clear the way is to part my thighs and hear me sigh - sit with me as the smoke rings rise and pink and orange fill the sky.
You said so yourself: I'm a crazy *****, but I'm yours, and we are bound together.