I don't know what to feel but I better figure it out. Sorry to want to bail I promise to work it out. I just now realize I don't belong home, I better get my *** back to Minnesota before I'm Alone. Been by myself for far to long. I better fix up the mess I made before things go wrong.

I'm sick of losing myself. Someone just understand and don't judge. I came home to be in a hole. Things are gonna pile and I am already almost buried. I should of been financially ready. I was hoping Job Core would be a right away thing. Now I am losing.

**** this place now, It's a joke all over again. Family in general fell a part and now **** is spread-ed about me. If I wanted to live this life style I'd a took my *** to Texas. Drama saddling up and success slipping. **** it, what the hell am I missing. Take me out of this nightmare before I lose control. I am alone and expected to pay more then I should. Why the need to **** up already? Is this home?

I remember everyone looking out for each other. Now people don't bother. What the ****? WHY NOW? I'm confused and lost again. In between family soon it will be open. I want to go back to Minnesota because it became home. Here it's nothing but anger. Family's here but not the family that changed me. I love you all by blood and by care. But I'm old enough to realize there's more for me back there. Sorry to say this isn't where I belong but I am happy to be able to say you're family. Minnesota is just the place where I'm happy. Had an awesome job, my own place. time and people were decent enough to live with. I just can't relate around here anymore.