nope
find me split downright sideways
up the middle coming from a
different direction

take me to dead fish laughing gull with
sickly sirens blaring blue notes
up to my eyeballs

dogs are barking down my throat and
I'm a tongue tied around a
whispering jack-o-lantern
kissing a mask in the corn maze

push my broken harp around in a
squeaky wheelbarrow tell me I'm
lighting candles for the dead find me
the next day asleep in my dreams
in my dreams I'm awake in my bed

asleep in my dreams
I'm waiting to wake up
in the underground

find me freaking out
find me finding myself lost
and unfinding myself lost and found

find me found
grind me into the ground
under your heel toe heel toe
skip to my truth

teeth grinding like gears as
a cog in the machine I'm a
canteen of watermelon sunshine ******

needles bent and battered
broken and shattered kind souls
in the black hole and I'm asphyxiating
just looking at it

blood drop
cancer

and I still love