I hate everything that reminds you of her
All the songs, and movies and places, even food, and pictures,
and memories and feelings and promises
I know I can never get rid of them
But I want to be your favorite memory and your best memory
And if possible, despite of the low probability,
Your one and only memory.
But no matter how much I try,
How is it possible to be haunted by a ghost of someone who is still alive?
How would she accept my apology if I couldn't even forgive myself?
Ah, maybe this is the thing they call 'guilt'
I am trapped and locked up and the key seemed to be thrown away in a blackhole
I can't seem to move on.
Please save me from drowning in my selfishness.