if I don’t understand your intention
or approach from the wrong side,
it’s only because I’m trying to decide;
is it that I believe in your soul or only
your flesh and blood;

hard dreams die too easily if what we
desire is something we do not understand;
perception of what is true may never reveal
itself because fear of rejection is more
powerful than the courage to tell you how
I feel without expectation

i could never understand why you are
the way you are, I can only try to understand
if it is the same way that I am, without
questioning it; I’m not looking for the
answers from you, I only want to see if a
way of life exists near you that is natural
to my own

i watched you paint a canvas even though
I never actually saw you do it; but I could
understand what you felt by the way you
stood next to it, wondering if that part of
your life would endure if not ever happen
again

the exhaustion of revealing the limits of
your creative expression is the same as
the fatigue I feel wondering about pleasing
you;

the thing you never would know is that I
was laughing all week one day last year;
and it was because the world around me
was not trying to pin me down or tell me
what to do

it only was a joke that wasn’t a joke because
though humorous, it was real and taught me
that the best way to trim your sails my way
is to forget all about your soul and just tickle
your feet