I have to come clean
I've been thinking about the meaning
I live behind the curtain
Searching to be a new person
Rehearsing in the mirror
Took a second to think about it
Not about to talk about it
People telling me to wake up
When I sing my songs and live my life then I'll be up
Clinging to fact of being alright
I just wanted you with me, alright
Holding on with all my might all night
Scared to fight the ghost under my desk
Infested with ludicrous thoughts
I could not believe
Received all that you gave to me
You ran away from me
I didn't cheat, you see
But it all started with Emily
I have to come clean
I've been thinking about the meaning
About where did we go
With these cops though
Beating blacks with a paycheck
When they die I hope they find there way down, hope they hear the flames sound
Brighter than the sun
Drowning in a pond of words
You told me this
What to search, is what life is for
Never thought about like this before
Never seen me like this before
You asked me more
Stringing the wrong chords
Then I told you sure
Walking down to the shore
You said how could you ignore
I started to think of my wrongs
I went down and laid on the floor
You took me down to show me that it wasn't meant to be me
Hiding away from my family
Sinking lower daily
I have to come clean
I've been thinking about the meaning
Because it all started with Emily