There's a side to me
That no one knows
It hides and wears within my bones
It lays low and hides
It does not show
It's concealed inside
So old and worn

I've forgotten how to cry
It has grown in me and wants me to die
It forces me to sit and wonder why
Why do I even try
It's a monster
Not a cute one with fur
That I am sure
It's atrocious and dark
It has swallowed my heart
And ripped me apart

It has strangled and tortured me
And held me back from what I could be
All I wants is to feed
Feed off what it needs
Blinding my eyes of what I used to see
I can hear it scream and wail
Wanting me to fail
I try to fight
But I fear of its bite
It beats me with its whip
There's blood on my lip
But the internal pain exceeds the hit

I don't expect much out of people
I've watched so many leave
But I still have this everlasting hope
It's the only way I can cope
It's still hard to not be upset
When my expectations are not met

I have such high standards
But **** does it hurt
I believe I deserve the best
It has only created a mess

I try to remember when did this all start
Everything hit me like a million darts
I wish you could all see this evil thing
It has beaten me and burned me
And now everything stings
I used to take the world by storm
Now a simple smile makes me cringe
How can you trust anyone
When deceit and lies are the norm

The creature likes to live in my bones
I have let it become overgrown
And give it a place to call home
But to be honest I'm all alone
Except for the creature that I've have gotten so close to have known