i love u all i miss my friends
idk what im doing
and im doing it again
im suffocating under everything ive done and will do again
and now i see how everything really is
some people were made for this
i cant handle this
i want all of this
i cant forget anything
most everything seems to mean nothing to me
there is only somethings that ill always need and never stop wanting
idk where im going
idk what is hapenning
i need to balance the good with the evil
i analyze myself so no one else needs to
i feel so guilty for everything
i know that im not worth anything
and ashamed of everything ive said and done
afraid to **** it because its all i am made of
everything im doing is crazy
everything im thinking of
i am worth everything
thats why i feel like this
if there is a hell then im going to hell
because i know that they can see it
i dont need anyone or anything to tell me
im so proud of this
not of this but of this
i ******* love my girl
and ive done some horrible ****
and  everything is opening and im scared of what is happening
if i promised it i can ruin it i can ruin anything