cannot stop scratching the bottom of the bucket my hair irritates my dreams I stir the bowl ****** and make another man plunge every night is cut short by the daily do I stuff myself with fresh leftovers the bed dust is rough with my scaly flesh I cannot die clean my morals neither align nor agree the summer nights sag with restless air I feel my love for him slipping her texts disturb my need for peace I feel the imbalance of straight acting tomorrow's weather is foggy I will stop looking for stars in you.