One blink, one thought, one bullet

One blink and a lost love,
Scattered yet beautiful like a flock of doves,
Needed one thing from life, a companion yet hidden within despair and strife
No camouflaged motives
Hidden within my brain
A feeling of depression
my soul is blood stained

One thought and an overcoming force
I feel something but it's not remorse
I have to find love, I need it quick
If impossible,to the floor my blood shall stick
Suicidal thoughts
Yet craves for living
Left alone and hidden
Undecided and unforgiving

One bullet to end all things
Hopefully given a pair of wings
Tears rolling down each persons face
Given final words of grace
I feel a pounding in my chest
For It was fake
Tears coming down my chin
and I'm finally awake