Why am I

sitting here

contemplating

how

I've come

to be here,


I don't understand

how

I've allowed

myself to end up here.

I didn't want to

be in this situation

not again,

I've given so much...

And

now

here

I've accepted

this fate

without a

fight!


I doubt

I've got it within me

to fight anymore,

yet

didn't I say

I wasn't "his type"  

and  

here I am

plunging deep

into

swirling watery

grave  

where

I've no way out.  

I'm ashamed

to admit or even say;

I have no inclination,


no answers

and

I don't even


understand

or

know

what I'm doing!


I can't fathom


how


I've allowed you in

when


all I've wanted was to be free,

I didn't take any of my

walls down...


Seems

You've

crashed

head first into em.

I feel like   such a fool,

Oh,  No,

There's

no one else and never can be again

hold me like you do,  

  allow me to filter my regrets,

cry

mournfully

as

I sip this wine.

I'm sitting here

contemplating

how

I've come

to be here,


I don't understand....

But,

I'll Stay!

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