We wanted to make sense of the world, So we colour-coded it, like our school schedules. Then we realized we got the colours wrong. Outside colours weren't the way to organize, so we looked on the "inside". Who was to think that we can see everyone's colour? They looked at the emotions we display. Just because I can't smile everyday, doesn't mean I'm different. It means I am sane enough to not wear a mask everyday of my life. Then again, sane isn't exactly a word that describes me...* Something else describes me, something I took long to admit something the world doesn know partly because I haven't told it but mostly because the world always sees what it chooses After all in not knowing there's nothing it loses, or there is In case it could profit from knowing about my bruises And my random thoughts that cloud my mind everyday like a mystic frost Times when I'm all caught up in this boundless ocean, life, And cannot see my way or the sickening and thickening waves coming my way Nobody knows I'm a ship with no radar, only no body ever paid attention That's why I lean on only nobody, and nobody's my ladder.