no protection  if  unwanted wants,
My head  appreciates numb moments
in time as all shall, passes
This personal hell felt.
Lights and sounds feel focused
Aimed true, rare are close calls.
Near misses none tooFrequent
these siege like afflictions.
To sum my remedy,
my blissful Leave,
to be, know,
No more episodes
agony within.
Contentment, and more time
in which colors, laughter, living exist.
No pain Fills This mind,
I can take part in,  miss less,
Hurt less.


A perfect day is...
Free of cadence,
No commitment to agony.
Too true, my remedy numbs,
completely, when dedicated.
To be is to take part,
costs one's importance's
time, cherished connections.