I really didn't mean to hurt the person I loved the most in an act so selfish that it would have me hurting for another 100 days

I have to realize
that we can't be in love right now
it's too late
much too late

it might be because of me
I know it's because of me

but I can't say I'm sorry
I broke your heart
and your moms heart
I broke the heart of your whole family

so I need to go away for a while
and find myself again
so I can try to be ok again
so I can make it everything ok again

I'm gonna fix it
I promise