Remember this nothing that you write from the heart is ugly. Because whether you know Christ or not, he still can use your poetry. To help bring healing to others, to reveal himself and to show others. That they are not alone in this here world that we each live in here. So trust me what you are writing may end up healing another here. So whatever you do please keep writing out your sufferings and pain. So that you may help someone to become healed through that poem. Because isn't that the purpose why you are writing in the first place. To help others to know that they are not alone in their struggles here.