I wish you weren't sober
The day that you died,
Because I know there was sincerity
In every tear that you cried.
No pills in your stomach
That you used to use.
Nothing to blame
For you tying the noose.
It was not the *****
Distorting your mind
Just you being sure
That you wanted to die.
Nothing to numb
All the hurt in your heart
Just every raw feeling
Before you could depart.
When I think of the pain
Your mind gave to yourself
I know that before heaven
You went through a hell.
I wish you weren't sober
The day that you died.
I wish I had saved you.
I'm sorry. I tried.