There you are Gracing your usual corner With smoke and a smirk to match. You are not looking at me, And I smile, because for once I know something you don't know. My one secret, clasped like a golden nugget in my palms Is but a grain of sand to your multitudes.
Looking down, something amuses you And you take another drag. Once again I find myself pining To pick up a habit that burns my lungs, too. Again, yearning To be the cancer you kiss, That you think of when your mind wanders and your hands ache, To be carried like treasure in your flannel's pocket, To be caressed between your calloused fingers. I would burn for you, too.
But then you look more aware, No longer lost to ineffable thoughts that are solely your own, And I jolt back Not wanting my moment to disturb yours. I shouldn't be here, Loving you from afar Reveling in the way you lift your cigarette Up to your hypnotizing mouth. I should be nowhere, and nothing.
But I'm already gone, Windblown. And you pay no mind As the leaves shuffle by your toes in the breeze.