the lines of the grates in the radiator imprint onto the backs of my legs people shuffle through the lobby, swishing peacoats and snowflakes dripping from their hoodies. i curl my fingers around the phone and press you closer to my ear.
i've always wanted you closer. you're tangled in earbuds on the bus, arm wrapped through the straps of your bag. you wear someone else's grey varsity sweater, red letters marked across the chest. you lock your windows before you go to sleep, white paint chipping and painting your nails. your goodnights are eclipses of the daring day stepping out without clothes and reminding me it's time to stop with you.
"i think i'm going to get help" you rasp, and i am silent as a family toddles through, children clinging onto the swollen mittens at their mothers' sides. i swallow and lean against the wall, sit against the radiator, cross my ankles over the blowing heat.