Trying to will a new life is as absurd as reasoning with death, weighing the heart of beauty or throwing stones at the moon. No one is allowed to start over. Everything is exactly what it is and nothing is like anything else. The effort to begin anew is as hopeless as trying to erase the stars. Only keep moving. Wake up, put your feet on the floor, take a step, take another. There is your new life. Just whatever happens today. ~mce