I kept telling myself we were nothing
probably because i knew that if anything ever happened between us
it would end too painfully
but i’d forgotten that pain is better than feeling nothing
because now the nothingness is tearing away at my insides
and watching you with her should be killing me
but it doesn’t,
because we’re nothing remember

I barely talk anymore
I don’t know why
but all I do is observe
and everything I used to not see is so visible now
so obvious
and ****, I can see