a child should never have to lose
their parent
at such a young age.
granted, you're still alive,
but you're not the mother I once knew.
growing up things were all right,
so I thought.
I thought we were a normal family,
until I saw how my friends families interacted.
apparently families aren't supposed to fight all the time,
moms aren't supposed to hit your older siblings
and dads are supposed to be around.
as I grew older and less naive,
you couldn't treat me the same anymore
I was beginning to be more like my siblings so you had to treat me like them too
I grew up, they moved out,
dad still wasn't around
so all your anger got taken out on me.
I was twelve the first time you hit me
and I didn't tell anyone.
the hitting and the yelling continued for the next three years
and when I finally told someone,
they didn't believe me.
you told me to **** myself so I tried
and then suddenly you loved me again
you wanted to be a part of my life
but I didn't want you in it
so you left
and didn't come back
but when you left, you took a little piece of me with you
and now, I lost you forever.
a child should never have to lose
their parent
at such a young age.