I am a paradox.
I want to be happy,
But I think of things that make me sad.

I'm lazy, yet I'm ambitious.
I say I don't care, but I really do.
I don't like myself, but I also love who I am.
I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way.

I am a conflicted contradiction.
If I can't figure myself out,
There's no way anyone else can.
*~ r.s