Until I can see a clear blue horizon,
faces smiling back me,
with an aura that could only be created from
inside jokes, memories and fun;

Until I can wake up to the light of day,
without longing for my hopes and dreams
as anxiety seeps into my bones,
slowly but surely making its way into my heart;

Until I can find myself, driving or even taking the bus,
to go to the place where I can do what i love most,
and at the same time call it a "job".
Oh, just even thinking about it almost hurts;

Finally, until I can come home tired and sweaty,
and I take off my clothes, jump in the shower,
to join the man who wouldn't want anything,
anything at all, than to call me his;

Until then.... Oh until they find me,

I will walk this road with my shadow.
I will smile at the fortunes of others,
even though it will **** me just a little bit inside.
Even then, I will keep my held high,
giving sweet Optimism a kiss on the cheek.

For sooner if not later, the warrior in me will prevail,

and I, will finally get my time under the sun.