It's not that I don't love you,
It's the sound I heard in the fifth grade of my mother slamming the door so hard, I swear it shook the whole house. It's the night I slept in her closet, because the smell of her clothes was the closest I could get to her. It's the time she told met hat her and my dad just weren't working out, when I promised myself that I would never fall in love.
It's not that I don't love you,
It's the time my neighbor fell in love with the boy who lived all the way across the country. It's the words that caused them to fall apart. because there was no way he could live like this, no way he could be with someone so distant. That was the time I told myself I would never fall in love.
It's not that I don't love you,
It's the boy who cheated and my best friend. It was the nights I stayed up with her as she cried and shrieked so hard, she almost threw up on my bedroom floor. It was the glimpse of her first love, and the fear of heartbreak when I told myself that I would never fall in love.

its not that i don't love you,
its that i do.