If I wasn't gay would people care? Would they actually let me breath the same air? Could I actually go to school, without people being so cruel? Could I live in a world with no hate? Maybe people would love me if I was straight. It's not as easy as people think. I can't just go to a shrink. I didn't choose to be this way. You really think I'd want to be gay? I don't want attention, I don't want fame. This isn't some sort of game. I am who I am and thats okay. Most people don't see it that way. I only wish I could be the same. To have a wedding and it not be shamed. I want to have kids and not be judged. I don't want my reputation smudged. But apparently I'm different now. Sick in the head somehow. Therapy and shock treatment for something that can't be fixed. How did I get put into this mix? Toxic and tragic, that's my life. It's like I was stabbed in the back with a knife. I'm gay, what's wrong with that? I get treated like some rat. Using your holy books and your religion. To fight against something that makes no difference. I want to be a human not a punching bag. Always getting called a ***. Let that word have power and it gets to you. But that words as good as whatever is stuck to the bottom of my shoe. I love being this way. I don't care what you say.