Apr 2015
I wish you could see it through my eyes maybe then things would be different. Maybe if you saw and felt everything exactly how I did maybe you'd understand.
All the pain you've caused you don't even realize it. I wish you could just look into my eyes and see the pain in them the pain that you placed them. Maybe you'd finally get it and youd finally understand. Because you see through my eyes I see nothing but the darkness anymore. I've grown accustomed to the dark it's been my friend for quite some time now.
Oh how I wish you only knew. Maybe if you looked into my eyes and see it all youd understand. Those late nights of nothing but my overwhelming thoughts swallowing me whole. The many tears that was shed that I tried so hard to choke back. All those stress induced anxiety attacks caused by the words you said words that were like blades cutting through my skin.
Maybe if you could've experienced every last thing you have done to me the way I had then maybe you'd finally understand.
I've been fighting this battle for so long all for what? Love? Love that I can't even tell if it's mutual any longer? I tried to run and hide but every time you find me. Every time you were right behind me with the knife that had been driven through my heart, and my wounds reopened by the words that you spoke.
It's become so hard for me to determine what lies true with you. The words you speak like poison that runs through my veins. I believe when I hear for a short while unable to determine what's true. Anytime I try and run I'm pulled right back in by the whispers of sweet nothingness something I know too well.
Sometimes I wonder how man of your age could do this to girl you claim to love. I wonder how you sleep at night knowing what you've done to me. Are you satisfied?
Are you happy knowing you destroyed this girl the girl who had fallen madly in love with you.
Sometimes I wonder if death is better than this because I'm no longer the girl I once was. I have walls built high up around me to try and save myself from ever feeling like this again. I shut everyone out and always put myself low because I feel it's safer that way. Maybe if you saw all this through my eyes then you'd realize how strongly I truly love you but how much pain and tears youve truly caused.
Because through my eyes you've torn me apart.
T.B.
All the pain you've caused you don't even realize it. I wish you could just look into my eyes and see the pain in them the pain that you placed them. Maybe you'd finally get it and youd finally understand. Because you see through my eyes I see nothing but the darkness anymore. I've grown accustomed to the dark it's been my friend for quite some time now.
Oh how I wish you only knew. Maybe if you looked into my eyes and see it all youd understand. Those late nights of nothing but my overwhelming thoughts swallowing me whole. The many tears that was shed that I tried so hard to choke back. All those stress induced anxiety attacks caused by the words you said words that were like blades cutting through my skin.
Maybe if you could've experienced every last thing you have done to me the way I had then maybe you'd finally understand.
I've been fighting this battle for so long all for what? Love? Love that I can't even tell if it's mutual any longer? I tried to run and hide but every time you find me. Every time you were right behind me with the knife that had been driven through my heart, and my wounds reopened by the words that you spoke.
It's become so hard for me to determine what lies true with you. The words you speak like poison that runs through my veins. I believe when I hear for a short while unable to determine what's true. Anytime I try and run I'm pulled right back in by the whispers of sweet nothingness something I know too well.
Sometimes I wonder how man of your age could do this to girl you claim to love. I wonder how you sleep at night knowing what you've done to me. Are you satisfied?
Are you happy knowing you destroyed this girl the girl who had fallen madly in love with you.
Sometimes I wonder if death is better than this because I'm no longer the girl I once was. I have walls built high up around me to try and save myself from ever feeling like this again. I shut everyone out and always put myself low because I feel it's safer that way. Maybe if you saw all this through my eyes then you'd realize how strongly I truly love you but how much pain and tears youve truly caused.
Because through my eyes you've torn me apart.
T.B.
