Once again I am entangled in a ******* with Chaos and Doom. Nothing **** or new about this trysting. I have known them since chopper nights thick and dark as blood fudge; since divorce nights of keening despair and humbling rage; since madhouse nights of weirding drugs and weeping angels; since jail nights of lonely screams and obscene rants. We go way back, and here they are again old, grim lovers, demanding and deadly, but oddly comfortable. From morning until evening, they smile and taunt until night comes, we snuggle up, and I escape into dreams, the only privacy I own.