Please don’t leave me

Now that you have been too dear

To me, though it might be queer to say that

You have been a huge part of my life

(even if your purpose remains unclear)

You have already struck my heart like cupid

It’s just that

You shot me not with an arrow

But with a spear

–

Like a javelin thrown with such tremendous force

That I didn’t have much time to prepare

For it, and I can only do nothing (for I am not aware)

But to shed a tear

A tear not of pain

Not of anger

Nor sorrow

But of joy

Joy of knowing that somewhere,

Someone is thinking of me

Joy of knowing that for someone, I am special

And it makes me feel special, and anyone can see it

For loving someone gives happiness in parts

But being loved back is the soul of the art.

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But what happened to all of these?

Why does it have to rain

Whilst a child is still enjoying the sun?

Why does it have to turn into a drastic nightmare

And tear my heart apart?

Not only my heart but also my soul and

Everything that completes me, I lost

All the emotions that I tried to keep

Safe from harm, ruined

My visions of the future, our future and

Everything else that lies ahead of us.

What emptiness awaits me? I dread

Of becoming a mere vessel, without a soul

Without any chance of being whole.

–

Alas, the time has come for your departure

I don’t mean to be rude but

Is it not right for a soul to hold on and not let go?

Do you really have to leave this heart you have encaptured?

And now leave me in rapture

But did not dare to mend me

Because you cannot touch me

And I cannot touch you either

Because you are only a ghost

And I am only human.

And now I am left with one solution

To end this confusion I would give up everything

Just to stay forever in this illusion

Because to live without you makes life not worth living

And every moment turns to grieving.

–

And now for once in this winter

I feel warmth from deep within

The sadness starts to fade and

All the pain that has been

Turned back to joy

For I know that on the other side

You wait for my arrival

Along with all the emotions I lost

On the garden by the sea

And that we will be together

For all eternity

And for all eternity it shall be.