Fingers crossed, heart open
Once again, praying don't let this happen again.
Waking in the morning, a kick in my step
Old blue jean jacket and sweat
I fearlessly lead.
But I want the weather to be warmer
I want to be thinner
And I wish you hadn't turned out to be such a coward.

I know it really couldn't have been something
My insides yelling at me, why did you think otherwise
Long Eyelashes can say a million I love you's
But he's got those empty pockets and bachelor stare
While my eye twitches from all the caffeine
And all the goodbyes I hear.

I fear bitterness could easily take hold
Everyone works it out with their significant other
But I film myself on my screen
Let me give myself peace.

I threw your tshirt and scarf away with a rush
In the dumpster of my court yard today
Red cartoon swirls around my head
Videogames, wasted words, late nights
Feeling like I was better
All for nothing.

I wish I had known you too,
Would end up being such a loser.
And I hate to feel angry.
Its not really my style
But can't a girl catch a break?

Seems like the universe demands no man sustain
My heart, while everyone chimes in
I am a warrior, fearless, and goodness
But why, why, why

I have started to hate my house
I have grown tired of the same place
But I try to swallow these past few hours of bitterness
Too much to do.

Haven't even touched Slaughtering April Fools
But I know I must, planning an Alabama runaway
It always comes in when needed.
But why did I put my future and hopes out there
Just let me please book this sweet thing, let this come through
Show me universe my path is aflame.

A wind cascading out
I hold my own hand, once again
24 years young, I sometimes
Have to tell my parents to give me space

I have never been a believer in regret
Two months and I will really
Look around with newfound eyes
Soak it up, my empty hand
I rise to any and all occasions.