I am so clueless and I'm crying so much and I'm trying to cry the memory of him out of me and it hurts. Each tear burns because it reminds me that he caused them. All I can imagine is him. All I can see is him. He has clouded every inch of my thoughts and I'm going fucking mad because all I can think about is his hands. Those hands can't touch me anymore. His lips can't kiss me he is no longer mine and I wanna scream. I held onto him so tightly and maybe it was too fucking tight because now he is gone and slipped right through my fingertips. I'm so mad because if I close my eyes hard enough I can imagine him telling me to my face that he doesn't love me anymore and it pisses me off because love isn't supposed to have a fucking expiration date. Love isn't something you can just drop. It can't be forgotten but maybe he can. I'm so upset. I am so fucking upset.
(b.c)