I spent my whole life chasing an dream that has not been fulfilled.
Each time I finally accepted my fate another woman appeared in it.
Each time it ended dash upon the rocks , with rejection from them.
But God loving-kindness has never abandon me, but is always there.
Ready to heal me but instead of running to him for dear life.
I run to the woman that is not suppose to be in my life at least not then.
But if I was to be like Abraham and say no then maybe she would come into my life later.
Permantly without any rejection, but only acceptation and love.
For Christ has to be first in my life at all times, him first always.