It’s late and I’m alone again I’ll try to write a poem again But I don’t know how successful you’re going to be It’s up to me to breathe the life into your heart, My little friend
So I’ll tell you how I spent my day Because you’ll hear the things I say While all of my peers are far away
I played tag with spiders on the floor As cobwebs above my attic door Drifted in a breeze that came from nowhere I could see Floated in the breath of some being I couldn’t see
When the arachnid came too close To the shadows that encroached My thoughts turned towards the sighing ghost And Halloween came 7 months too early In my fog filled head
So I’ll give an October air about you Purely for the sake of being un-seasonal Written in the spring when you should be written in the fall
Who sees orange leaves in almost April? Who else smells evil in the air? Who can feel the whispering maple Playing with your windswept hair? Can you see the goblin sleeping in its secret lair, My little friend?
That’s the place where I wanna be Out in the open with the trees So I can let my soul run free With my imagination in its grasp
Instead I’m still here in this room Air smelling like a different doom Cut off from the grinning moon A prisoner in this painted womb
But outside is unseasonably cold This winter weather is too old The frost outside is far too bold And I can’t lie, I am distressed, My little friend
Distressed is better than depressed Too bad today I’m both I guess Because I’m too alone at best Angry and obsessed at worst For simply someone to converse And share the thoughts I have rehearsed But I’m left within the dust to brood and thirst, My little friend
I feel abandoned and annoyed At how easy I am to avoid Like a fool, a ******* toy I’m feeling cruel, My little friend
I can’t keep waiting for warm weather It’s been coming for a month too long And the place where I’ll feel better Will only make me feel more wrong With plants still dead and freezing soil With no birds to give it song
So I’ll keep you close at heart And keep waiting to be happier And waiting on that smile I lost somewhere along the way
Today you’re my piece of Halloween You’re a fragile memory You’re a grinning, growling, gleaming jack-o-lantern I carved out of nothing with my voice And etched into the computer screen
I tried to breathe the life of another season From this spring air and into you But I think I failed somewhere along the way today And let you down just like my friends have done to me So the least that I can do is nothing, but I will thank you And wish you were a human being Instead a poem just listening