I blamed you
For the way I turned out
My depression
My anxiety
I felt betrayed by you
So many ******* tears
I just wanted to run away
Climb a mountain
And jump off into the deep
I felt worthless
A *******
The hatred seeped in
And I wanted you dead
I prayed again and again
For God to release this pain
But nothing came
I cried for a lot of many days
Years of wallowing in self-pity
Filled with a hate that wouldn't go away